Openness

are there only certain times of the day and places where it's acceptable to sound desperate? maybe i'm too convenient. some would see it as disposable. if it's not rare, it's not valuable. the things i want sometimes become obsessions. they fade out after a while, like everything else but it feels great when i've got it. i'm happy and there's not much more that i want. the few things i do want are beautiful. there was this one that wanted me, couldn't have me, later had me and then didn't want anymore. and i worry about relationships with people. mostly for my gain. i like to learn people thoroughly. i find them out, implore my thoughts and let them leave or stay.