Valentine

thanks for the gifts. i liked the flowers, the chocolates and the stuffed animal. you may have went over the top this year with the necklace. i'm really looking forward to dinner tonight at t.g.i. american.

Friends

i have many friends, and to some of them i am their only friend. i live in a house with 3 other roommates now. 2 of which i am friends with. so to our friends that we're their only, we cherish them and shit. we realize these friends that don't have much else, have us. i think they've realized that we don't have any demands of them, we don't care what they're like. maybe outcasts from the norm come together to share.

we like them and grew up with them, i've even invited them to bring over their "dumbass friends".

this is mostly because if you're significantly more intelligent than the group of people you're with, then that intelligence is never recognized. well, it may be recognized as something else, like a crazy opinion.

i went through that for about a total of 2 months somewhere. it was horrible, i just had to sit there and take it and i felt like the idiot of the lot. a very undeserving punishment, i rarely talked down to them...

Openness

are there only certain times of the day and places where it's acceptable to sound desperate? maybe i'm too convenient. some would see it as disposable. if it's not rare, it's not valuable. the things i want sometimes become obsessions. they fade out after a while, like everything else but it feels great when i've got it. i'm happy and there's not much more that i want. the few things i do want are beautiful. there was this one that wanted me, couldn't have me, later had me and then didn't want anymore. and i worry about relationships with people. mostly for my gain. i like to learn people thoroughly. i find them out, implore my thoughts and let them leave or stay.